啊啊啊, so screwed, 发发牢骚,可能会感觉好点吧. 谁知道呢.

开门见山,这个学期对我来说就是torture!!!!!!!

firstly, geometry is just so stupid, why is dulmage so picky on steps, does he feel bad  giving ppl good marks. Also the stuff I learned has no practical meaning at all!!!! I cant think of anytime where I can use these stuff in real life. IT'S JUST SOOOOO STUPID!!!!! and it killes so much time, 'cause hw takes forever to complete, and they're extremely boring!!!!! same reason: it doesn't have any practical meaning!!!, why de hell do I care about dot product or cross product.

 

Then, compare to geometry, phy is relatively easy, but why cant I get high mark, it's always like I feel quite good, but end up getting a really ugly mark. THIS SUX!!!! so after spending all that time on hw, which no one had bothered to do, I still end up getting such low marks!!!!, it's just not worth it. SO what I've decided to do is, stop doing any work, so then if I get a bad mark, I wouldn't feel too bad about it.

 

NOW, something outside of school.

本人又荣幸的成为了无业游民for　３　weeks.　这绝对是自找的．

然后就是钱包丢了，里面有钥匙和银行卡，还有ttc　card,和学生卡，幸亏我没傻到把所有的卡都放进去，要不真的sb了．不过这几天总是大门进不去，然后今天发现新配的钥匙好难用，用了５分钟我才把门＂撬＂开．．．．．．．

 

哎，　还是学校那点事，烦死了快，是不是我把expectation设的太高，如果拿不到９０s，high　80s也没什么不好，何必那么难为自己呢．哎，有些东西是看的越重，期望越高，失望也就越大．

还好geometry在第３个考试后，我就已经看清楚形式了．所以也没期望什么．要不这么受打击早就去撞墙了．

 

现在我是前景渺茫, 估计想明年毕业是不太可能了, 如果我明年一年都像现在这样stressed. 估计要折寿3年的. 哎,我还想多活几年呢, 所以让自己轻松点, 也没什么不好的. 我又不恨自己. 而且如果继续这么stressed, 可能明年会screw everything up. 一样没法毕业.

 

前一段时间好累, long weekend过了跟没过一样, 还是很累. 现在呢, 好多了, 因为我决定从今以后不再做作业了. 只要保证pass就行了. so....  download some games, and enjoy.   恩, 不要觉得这是堕落, 这只是找到了个balance而已. 没必要给自己那么大压力, 既然分数和努力不成正比, 付出的和回报的相差很远。那如果不做任何homework的话, 拿什么分都是好的. 恩, 就这么决定了.

 

since when I'm so negative, lol.

 

这个学期赶快过去吧!!!